Returning to the Body and the State of Being

What does inner power truly mean? Giving a single-sentence, cliché answer to this question is quite challenging. Everyone's way of perceiving power has a texture as unique as their own fingerprint. Although I cannot offer an exact formula for this concept, I can explain it through my transforming bodily sensations.

There are moments of questioning that every person experiences from time to time in their life. For me, this was progressing in an uninterrupted cycle. In daily life, I was constantly doing things; these were generally things I had to do, like all of us. There was always a state of "doing." Quite far from the state of "being"... Then, when I questioned and analyzed what I was doing, I always encountered this question: "Where am I in all of this? Are these things I do truly the things I want?"

I was answering the things I asked with my mind, again with my mind. Or so I thought back then. Those were times when I knew nothing about bodily sensations. I was not listening to my intuition, not even trusting it, thinking I was feeling wrong. Notice that I keep saying I "thought"; because my mind was in complete control. The body, on the other hand, was continuing on autopilot without making a sound in the face of this pressure from the mind. Or at least trying to. Unyielding fatigue, pains, a constant state of restlessness inside me, being perpetually on alert, a breath restricted from seeing everything as a threat... A closing chest.

Feeling the Ground

Taking your own power in your hands; feeling that ground beneath your feet when you step on the earth. Taking support from there, meaning from myself again. Today, my rib cage is open and relaxed, my breath is soft and in its own rhythm; my body feels that it is calm and in the flow. Always a strong, flexible, and silent state of clarity.

My mind still thinks, continues to produce new scenarios; mostly negative scenarios too. My body, which used to go on high alert in these scenarios, is now more relaxed and peaceful than ever before. The mind also calms down when it is like this.

Here and Now

It wouldn't be an exaggeration to say my life has changed completely. Because my perspective has changed. I take my new steps with great courage. I used to make decisions and apply them in the past too, yet internally I would always find myself questioning myself. I embrace everything I have done and the decisions I have made up to this day with love; because they turned me into the person I am today.

Looking at today, I have stopped questioning the decisions I take and the steps I make. After taking the first step, everything becomes clear; the next step comes and everything flows as it should. The state of being! I am in it, I exist, I am here and now, safe. And this is such a feeling that; things that used to squeeze my heart even at the thought of them now seem like child's play. I apply them and move on. After taking my decisions, my foot does not remain suspended in the air to take that first step in anxious thoughts, burning inside for days. The soles of my feet feel the ground. I take great pleasure in my life evolving towards a different place. I am in complete trust and surrender. Everything happens exactly as it should.

Hand in Hand with the Inner Child

Did I become someone else? I don't think so. I was always me. Those fears I felt were the fears of the little child inside me. That little child grew up, became an adult. Now that adult self of mine safely embraces the child inside me. Hand in hand, they set out to explore the world together.

I can say that this process is a deep and demanding journey, yet it is absolutely worth setting out on. Every process truly begins with a single step. Mine also started with a single step I took towards myself, my inner self, in my most wounded state. Returning to the body, exploring my bodily sensations... And right there, I found the true power within me.

If you also wish to feel that unshakable power within you and make contact with your own earth, the world of Yosomind is waiting for you right here, exactly for this.

With love,

Elif GOKCE